February

I always have plans to write more. But life happens. And I have been giving a little more attention to my teaching blog and the fun of that. Not that this isn't fun too, but you know... ;)

I thought at least I will check in once a month. Last month was the roller coast, but the Lord is faithful. He has continued to show that to us in the way He takes care of the little details.

Yet, why is it so hard to continue to trust Him?
This month I feel like in his faithfulness he is calling on us for a greater trust. We have begun giving him the things that hold us here, and other times he takes them from us. In the midst of it all it sometimes feels like madness. I question what is happening, our future.

I am a planner. I love calendars, planners, lists. I plan so I don't worry. So this month, there have been days of worry. Wondering what God has for us in the future. How will it all come together. Wondering if others think we are foolish in our decisions. Are we really following the Lord's leading.
But I hear the voice that says, trust me.

And then my mind wonders do I believe that what he has in store for us is wonderful and amazing. But what if it is not. What if life gets more difficult.
And then I remember again. Trust.

This verse in proverbs resonated with me last month, and it continues to be the verse that comes to mind as I think about the future. God has never said life would be easy, that everything would make sense, but he has always promised to be there. I can plan all I want to, but it is his way that will prevail. In my lack of plans I am looking to him more than ever. He will never leave us or forsake us.
So Trust me.

Last week as I was preparing for the 3 year olds sunday school class we teach, they were going to learn about Habbakuk. The trust that Habbakuk had to have in the midst of all the confusion and questions. We talked with the 3 year olds that even when things are going wrong we can remember: God is strong. God loves us. He listens when we pray. As I heard their little voices repeat it with me as we said it multiple times, I was struck with how simple it is to repeat, but do I always believe it like I should?

So as we continue to move (at an alarming pace) through 2015, we know that we can trust the Lord. He will establish his way in our life.

Psalm 20:7, Proverbs 3:5-6, Thessalonians

And, on a side note, for when worry still tries to sneak in listening to this CD has been a huge encouragement to me.

January

Its hard to believe that January was just one month. When we entered 2015, I knew it would be a year of lots of changes. I knew that a lot of the future was still uncertain. But I hoped. I imagined. I planned.
You know when you are on a roller coaster, and you make it through one rocky part, but the bulk of the ride has not yet even started. And then that last part is the wildest ride. When its over, its hard to move.
That would describe January.

It's disappointing, in a blink of an eye, everything started to change. But throughout that roller coaster, I'm grateful to have a constant: Jesus.
We hoped for things to go a different way, but since our hope is IN the Lord, we do not fear.
He knows our plans. He guides our steps.
We do not fear.

There are so many things to look forward to in the coming months. Even in disappointment there is great joy. We have made some decisions for our future that bring peace to my heart even in the midst of uncertainty. We will keep trusting that the Lord will guide our steps.
Because He is faithful and He is good.
So grateful to serve such a Faithful Father.

Proverbs 16:9, Isaiah 40:31, Isaiah 43:1-3,  Philippians 1:6